The Doctor
I have a little quiz for you.
Tell me what you think.
Be honest.
I want to know.
I am going to provide you with a quotation. And you….? You tell me what comes to mind.
Ready?
Ok.
If you love someone set them free. If they come back, they’re yours. If they don’t return, they probably got hit by a truck.
Sappy. I know. But, what do you think of it? Makes you wonder doesn’t it?
If I love you and you love me, I guess we’ll never have to say “Ooops! My bad.”
Sorry. That sounded snarky. I was hoping to get a little smile.
Ok. Next one.
You are always free to change your mind and choose a different future, or a different past.
Do you think that’s true? I mean, is it possible that you and I could….
Right now… right this minute… decide we will change the past? Maybe it never happened. Or at least, it didn’t happen the way you say it did.
Oh please.
Stop.
Don’t be upset. I hoped this game would cheer you up.
And now look at you.
Really.
I want you to look at yourself.
Turn your head and look at yourself in the mirror.
Oh right… you are just so comfortable….you may not feel like moving. You might just want to lounge.
So, let me just tell you.
You look upset.
Unhappy.
The opposite of what I wanted for you.
I wanted to make you happy.
Ok.
There you go.
That’s better now.
Let me dry your eyes.
Show me that beautiful smile.
Ready for the next one?
Ok. This is one of my favourites.
Every gift from a friend is a wish for your happiness.
Don’t you love it?
So obvious.
So simple.
And yet? It is so true.
It’s like us.
You and I?
Best friends.
At least I thought we were.
I’m not sure what you were thinking.
What were you thinking?
Sorry.
That’s not fair.
I know you are tired and here I am making you talk. Bet you don’t feel like it.
God.
You make me smile.
Just thinking of all the good times we had together.
All the laughs.
All the fun.
But, here’s the thing.
And this hurts me to say.
Nevertheless, I need to take my own inventory before I take yours.
How can I expect other people to be honest, if I won’t be?
I was a fool.
Yes.
Don’t deny it.
You don’t have to try to protect my feelings.
I was a fool. “A real maroon,” to quote Bugs Bunny.
I really wanted you to be happy. I loved taking care of you. Cooking for you.
Getting you those little gifts.
Looking back, I am not sure why I didn’t notice. I guess I just wanted to be close to someone I respected and admired.
I thought you felt the same way about me.
Oh dear.
Could it be….? Maybe I didn’t want to see?
Or maybe I became bored?
Yes, that might have been it.
Either way.
Here we are, now.
Me loving you.
And you….
What’s that, Sweetie?
You really need to work on your diction. Sometimes you mumble. Just a tip. For the future. Proper elocution is the hallmark of good breeding.
Let’s continue with the quiz.
Give me your thoughts on this one.
Can miles truly separate you from friends? If you want to be with someone you love, aren’t you already there?
Ah! That one got to you.
Didn’t it?
It’s like a circle inside a circle. A riddle inside an enigma.
Don’t you get it? It’s a puzzle.
If you really want to be with someone….if you love them, you are already there. Because miles, time and space cannot separate you. Just wanting….just imagining you want to be with your loved one, means you are already there.
Doesn’t it sound like us? Our relationship. Kind of hard to understand? At least to outsiders. Not to us.
Golly, you are looking tired.
Barbiturates make you sleepy don’t they? I wasn’t sure how much of the pentobarbital to use. 10 grams seemed about right. I mixed in some Reglan to help with the nausea. You still had some of it your bathroom cupboard from that recent bout of heartburn.
Maybe it is time to let you sleep.
I took a hit of the barbital a few minutes ago, too. Honestly. I feel quite relaxed. I might have to top it up, later. Mix a bit more in with some juice and slug it back.
Let me lie down beside you.
Slide my arm under your pillow.
My goodness, Honeybun. Your head is heavy. It just goes to show that you have been gaining weight despite all my help in that department.
There you go.
That looks better.
You look more comfortable.
Think of this as my gift to you.
A wish for your eternal happiness.
But, more than that.
Think of it as payback. A karmic gift of vast proportions.
Because I care.
I always have.
I always will.